I can't lie.  I miss what was.  I am alone.  I am scared of the future.  I am lonely.  I miss having someone to love me.  Even though you didn't love me like you should have, maybe that little bit of love was better than the lack of love I feel now.  I wish sometimes that I never left you and that you were just a better, kinder liar and I could have been happily oblivious to it all and remained your wife.  It hurts me to live the life I live now.  Like a sour taste in my mouth.  This isn't what I planned for.  This isn't what I wished for.  I wanted happily ever after.  With you.  Now I am all alone.